I have questioned my vocation-as-artist many times.
Sometimes the questioning was borne from doubt ("I'm not good enough").
Sometimes from stress ("I need to pull in a bigger income to support my family").
And sometimes from an unease at settling on any one thing ("There must be something else...").
But each time the question has arisen, and I've looked it right in the face, the answer has come back the same:
Keep painting. Keep drawing. Keep creating.
And with each cycle of questioning (and answering), another layer of resistance has melted away. Resistance to what?
To being. To doing. To living this human life. To making a choice about my vocation, and sticking with it (for a while, at least).
So today, I am back in my studio (nothing fancy; just a small room in the back of my house, packed with tools, canvases, and an intent to create.) This week's project is for the annual Gold Labs Symposium, an event that pulls together scientists and thinkers from around the world, to discuss the global state of healthcare. My job? To distill each year's themes into a concrete piece of artwork.
The work in progress:
And what about you?
Are you inspired by your vocation?
Or do you find yourself in a situation divorced from inspiration and fulfillment?
If the latter, is there one small step that can be taken in the direction of a greater engagement in what you are here to do?
(More on this in an upcoming post...)